I swear I find myself lucky. It seems as though some people around here have sticky fingers. I hope they know that if I catch them stealing from me they won't have any fucking fingers left. I think they know this, and that is why I have been lucky so far.
Anywhere you go in this world there will be the scum of the earth. The junkies, skanks, and thieves. The people that will never go anywhere in life because they don't want to go anywhere in life. They want to waste away forever, wasting space on this earth, trying to do as least as possible. They are fucking lazy lowlifes that need to go to jail or die. One of the two, so the rest of us may have at least a small chance of making it.
I like to think that we are doing good, and that we are being social like we are supposed to. However, I don't know if that is the best thing for people to do anymore. It almost seems better to just stay in and away from as many people as possible. Most of the pain and drama in life are caused by other people in one way or the other. I guess that is why God focuses so much on forgiveness, because people are shit.
posted by Jamie @ 12:47 PM
July 16, 2013 -
You can't make a woman love you...
Literally, all that women do is lie and cheat. I am fucking done.
posted by Jamie @ 8:33 AM
July 13, 2013 -
Got my laptop going again...
Well, Elizabeth loaned out my laptop to some friends and when it came back it was messed up. I had been having some issues out of the hard drive for a long time, but it was still working.
I got it back and it was having hard drive input/output errors. So, I figured it was either A: Hard Drive Failure - or - B: Software corruption. I proceeded with the easier/cheaper of the two which was re-installing the OS. I use Linux Mint 15 on my Desktop All-in-One and on my laptop. Surprisingly it worked for a couple of days just fine. Then, the HD failed for good. :-(
The entire computer would not do much with a bad hard drive posting errors, so I had to remove it and hook up my external Seagate Backup+ 1TB to it. I re-installed Linux on it and voila! Here I am making a blog post from the laptop. It is kind of a pain in my ass to have a laptop that has to have the hard drive hooked up by wire all of the time. It is more likely to get damaged or have issues now.
It will work fine for now until I break down and put even more money into this computer. I just keep fixing everything as it breaks, so it keeps running... I usually upgrade every part that breaks as well. The 160 GB hard drive went out. It now has 1 TB. The 500 GB hard drive went out in my HP a couple weeks ago. It also has a brand new 1 TB internal drive. The bad thing about the HP is that it only has a couple hundred GB of space left, so it needs its external backup drive back ASAP.
This morning started early... well not exactly early, but definitely early for the man that stayed up all night working on a computer. I helped James mow grass at his late Grandmothers house in Walkertown. We got it done pretty quick, so it wasn't too bad, even though I didn't get too much sleep. The worst thing that I felt because of lack of sleep was being sore. I don't know, maybe it is just old age. lol. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 10:08 PM
July 12, 2013 -
Life always get's in the way...
I love to write in my blog, don't get me wrong. But, it seems like there are always a million other things that I have to do before I can even start on it. Oh well.
I am at work right now. Been a pretty slow day thus far, with only one toner and a couple other little things. James is in Wilkes, so I am on this side of campus by myself today. Not a big deal. I am used to it, because of the days that he is on vacation I am still here kickin! lol
I wrote a check for my power bill on Wednesday and just realized today that it is still in my laptop case. That sucks! Now my bill isn't going to be paid before the weekend and I am going to have to pay that damn fee to pay it online or over the phone. Fucking sucks.
I am struggling and struggling to get ahead down here. I know I am making a good bit more money than I was in WV, but between bills and family, I stay broke. I just don't see an end to poverty in my life. Ever.
Damn I wish I could just get a credit card, or credit of some sort somewhere. I need to start building my credit back up now that I got my student loans paid off. However, since I defaulted on one, it destroyed my credit, thus, I'm fucked. I mean, just a credit card would help us out a lot, like on the weeks that there are more bills and we are a little bit short on cash for groceries. No where will give me or Liz one. I have no idea why. She doesn't have any credit, so I thought at least one company would issue her a starter card or something with a small limit. No such luck yet.
I guess I am going to get back to work. Try to stay as busy as I can so that maybe the day might go by a little bit faster. I doubt it though. I need a fucking nap. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 10:17 AM
July 06, 2013 -
Things change up so quickly.
Everything was going great today, then in the blink of an eye you can read something that can completely destroy your day. It seems like this happens especially a lot to me. It seems that it is a decision that I made. Usually it involves someone else though. I am not saying that I don't cause some of my troubles in my life, but most of the time it has to do with someone else fucking shit up.
Stupid motherfucking people. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 1:29 AM
July 05, 2013 -
The Real World...
I was working on doing some writing because it is something that I enjoy to do. I have a lot of thoughts and skills that I would like to write about. Not for other people to understand, but to help me understand my own mind.
The brain is a complex thing. I have been blessed with a great memory so I know millions of song lyrics, thousands of movie quotes, and hundreds of stories. I am normally only around a few people per day, usually only Elizabeth and Landon. I talk to them about a lot of things, but as you know, there is no way that they can relate or understand everything that I would like to talk about.
While I have been sitting here working on my writing Elizabeth has had the new season of "The Real World" playing on Hulu. I have been watching some on and off and listening to a lot of it. It absolutely amazes me how ignorant and shallow some people are. There are only like 3 of these people on this show that I can even tolerate. They are all spoiled ass brats that need smacked in the fucking face. #realworldmyass #fake #losers #mtv
I figured I would drop a few tags in there, so maybe I can attract some real world haters to share some hate with me toward these motherfucking morons. Literally, it is like watching a bunch of 12 year old's arguing over who is older by the day. Maybe not the best analogy, but it is pretty fucking stupid. Okay, rant over about "The Real World."
I had a rough start to the day today. Had some issues with the Van and ran late. I was freaking out. I know my bad luck fucks me over, but it really bothers me when it fucks over other people. I don't like to have any negative influence on other people, because I don't want them to do the same to me. I always try to be truthful and respectful, so that I may get the same in return. I rarely do. I always hoped that saying would always be two sided. But, it proves to be one sided every time. I always treat people the right way, and they always treat me like shit. It is not a pity party, it is fact.
These people, the ones that treat me like shit, they always come around. They apologize and expect things to go back to normal. This is true for most situations, however, after the situation repeats and continues to repeat, over and over and over and over and over and over and over again, it may be time to wake up and smell the roses.
I am proud of myself. I haven't been on #Facebook since I got home. I am feeling the need to check it though. Only because, it is the only way that I communicate with some people. So it is a necessity. Way to go Mark Zuckerburg. You made us NEED Facebook. Must be an amazing feeling to achieve such a goal.
Well, we are going to set off the left over fireworks from last night. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 11:09 PM
July 04, 2013 -
Working on Independence Day....
It sucks, but it was my turn to work on a holiday. I drove the Van again today. What sucks about that is I could leave early if everyone else could. But, all of the riders that road today work in the same department, so I am the only one that could leave early if I wanted. However, being as I am the driver, I also have to stay until 5. Oh well.
I don't know what we are going to do to celebrate tonight. Probably just go buy a box of some small fireworks for Landon, and spend the evening with my babies.
Today has been a better day between me and my love Elizabeth. She says that those bad days are behind us now, so I guess we will see. I sure hope so, because I love her more than she will ever know. I see her in every dream and every thought that I have of the future. I just know that we are meant to be.
It has been a relatively slow day here at work. I mean, there has been work, don't get me wrong, but 70% of the people that work here aren't here today, so there isn't much printing going on. I just can't wait until 5 p.m. Later!
posted by Jamie @ 2:18 PM
July 03, 2013 -
Rain, Rain, Rain
Seems like that is all it ever does in this state. Almost every single day we will have at least one little shower. Most of the time is it thunderstorms. I hate this depressing weather.... for the most part.
I drove the Van today for the first time as a backup driver. It went ok, except for of course, the rain. Also, the people around here never really learned how to drive, so... There was an accident on I-77 that made us late this morning. Then, this evening it was raining and shitty, and the person in front of me slammed on their brakes and I almost rear ended them. Needless to say, it wasn't a great driving day. I hope people don't judge me by it.
Elizabeth was mean as shit to me as soon as she got out of bed. That has been another everyday thing. Her treating me like shit and me bending over backwards to make her happy, just to be treated like shit again tomorrow. Kinda getting sick of that shit. I am not saying that I am the nicest person 100% of the time, however, I don't just go off about stupid childish things like not having a fucking soda. I would simply grab a glass and drink some Tap water. Like and adult would. Geez.
Doesn't really matter what we are sick of in this life. We are all here to suffer and tolerate. This is just a test of your character to see if you will be granted eternity in a better place. No matter how I am treated all day, whether my day was bad or good, I still try to be respectful and kind to the people around me. Even if that person is the person that ruined my day. I treat people how I want to be treated, and do not stoop to their level with revenge or spite. Those are childish emotions that escalate even the smallest of issues into huge life changing problems. This is what Elizabeth tends to do about a lot of things.
I know I love that girl with all of my heart, and I think that she loves me too. But there is only so much misery one person can go through. It would be different if I deserved it. Like, if I was a bad Dad, or abusive spouse, but I am nothing like that. I try to remind her constantly throughout everyday how much I love her and want her and think about her.... She reminds me of every little fucking think that has went wrong in the last 23 years. Sometimes it is so unbearable that I want to leave and never speak to her again. For real.
I guess I all I can do is hope the shit stops before it is too late. I doubt it though. Some people never change, or change for the worse. Later.
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