Well, today is the day I suppose. The day that I officially become a resident of NC. I am getting my NC drivers license in a few, after James get's out of the doctor. I am thinking that there will probably be some kind of issue with it, and I will end up not getting them today. It seems like things like that always happen at the DMV, no matter what the state.
I am sitting out in the car in the AC on my laptop blogging right now. Just seemed like something to do while I wait. Also, doing a little work, since I get internet here.
I can't believe how much I used to write on here. I guess life got pretty boring and repetitive for a while and there was nothing new to talk about. It seems like there is always something new to talk about down here in NC. Such as, Elizabeth let our new neighbors borrow my laptop for a night. This night ended up turning into 2 months... well last night I made Elizabeth get it back. Needless to say, it is broken. Looks like hard drive failure.
Every time I try to help someone it seems like something negative like this happens to me. I don't know if it is some kind of test from God or something to see my character, or if it really is just my luck. I just wish things would turn around for me. However, it is my bad decisions that have the shitty consequences, so... who is really to blame?
Work has been getting crazy busy lately. We are doing a refresh of the Lowe's stores and Corporate print devices. There are lots of them! The days at work have been going by a lot faster thats for sure. I like it. I always prefer to stay super busy over waiting for something to happen. Those days are the longest ever!
My back has been giving me some crazy pain the last few days. I have been trying not to go to a pain management doctor for some time, because I didn't want to be addicted to narcotic pain killers. However, I am finding it more and more difficult to perform daily tasks due to unnecessary pain. So, I think I am going to have to pursue this further. I have already had them sent my records from my previous Dr. in WV, but they are wanting a most recent X-ray that I had done in 2012 when my back went out on me. I haven't had a chance to make the call for them to send it. It was at Rainelle Medical Center, and I hate dealing with that place.
Well, off to DMV and work.... another busy day... both personally and professionally. I will probably blink and it will be time for bed! lol. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 9:13 AM
One and Only... probably never
I don't know why I feel this way... or do I. I have watched things change over the years and I know when things aren't right. No matter what one person says, to what the next person says... things are not right between us.
All I can ever do is try to make someone feel as special as they are to me. Apparently I fail miserably at this or deserve to miserable and alone. I can either give up or shut up... or both.
Some days I just don't know what to do...
posted by Jamie @ 1:19 AM
June 23, 2013 -
Pre-4th fireworks...
TJ and Kennedy set off some fireworks tonight. A nice little preview to independence day. Landon loved them. The only problem with it is whenever it is time to stop, Landon doesn't want to. But, I guess that is typical two-year old.
I am wondering if Elizabeth still loves me the way that she used to. She has been acting a little bit strange lately. She swears it has nothing to do with me or us, but I don't know if I believe that or not. I love her, and I would do anything to not lose my baby girl. I don't want my family to be broken like mine was my whole life.
Sometimes I think that I might just worry too much. It is hard to think that all of these feeling would be for nothing though. I am going to change the subject. If you are reading this, I love you Elizabeth.
Well, I guess it is getting a little bit late. I am really sleepy. My eyes are trying to close and have like a sleepy film over them. I am thinking that means it is definitely that time. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 11:15 PM
Sunny and pretty outside...
Today looks like a beautiful day outside. That doesn't mean that I am going to be outside in it all day. lol. I know my little buddy will want to go outside and play though. I was wanting to sleep in a little bit today, but didn't have that opportunity. I woke up about an hour ago and couldn't go back to sleep. Needless to say, however, that my babies are still sleeping.
I enjoy these days for the most part. Watching my little family sleep gives me a sense of security, I guess just knowing that they are safe here with me makes the big difference.
I am going to have to get a little bit of work done today I believe. So I am not working frantically all week to get that list to Justin. The list is for the next phase of our corporate refresh. I have to make up a list of the next devices to be replaced. This will mostly include the older model types, but there are a few newer color machines that need to go as well.
I just got finished with my appointment with Jay Lauck from Cutco knives. I broke down and purchased the Homemaker set. Those knives are amazing. Going to cost me $930 after all of the payments... ouch! Well worth it though for the amazing Handmade quality and a FOREVER guarantee. I can't wait to get them in the mail! I'm gonna be cutting up all kinds of shit! lol.
Definitely was a painful choice on the wallet, however, with all of the discounts that were cut only for this one day, I had to make the purchase. Saved me almost $300 in the long run, but I know they will make Elizabeth happy as a pig in shit when she cooks and has awesome cutlery to use. Also, I never, ever, have to buy another knife in my life. Thank you Cutco.
Don't know what I am going to make of the rest of this day yet. I am just sitting here on the computer as usual, blogging, talking to my Baby Lizzie, and playing with Landon. There really isn't any better way to spend my free time than with them. I love my little family. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 12:50 PM
June 22, 2013 -
Saturday didn't really turn out to much
I have basically been on the computer all day. Doing various things such as playing games and facebooking. Literally wasting my life, waiting for something exciting to come my way. I guess in a way it is relaxing... but it is definitely more depressing than relaxing.
We had some Papa Johns pizza again tonight. It is pretty good pizza. We definitely eat enough of it to know. I am a member of the Papa rewards program and we have earn 2 free large pizzas already because of how much we have ordered.
Now we are hanging out next door with the neighbors. Finally some human interaction I suppose, but look at me, I am still sitting her blogging. lol. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 9:19 PM
Chrome games - Command and Conquer
I have been playing around on this computer all day. Just trying to find some things to pass some time away with. I found this game in the Chrome store and thought it was pretty cool. I haven't had any battles yet because I have only played it for a couple hours, but I can see that it seems like something I will play for a little while.
I tried playing a game of chess against someone on a Chrome app and got my ass kicked. I don't know why I am so good at chess when I play on a real board but always suck really bad online. Oh well. I guess the real thing is always better.
posted by Jamie @ 5:44 PM
Relationships...
There are a number of different relationships we all experience in life. It is hard to understand how other people feel about you or other people in their life. Everyone looks at love and bonds in different ways, and every single human being expresses love in different way.
Many spend their entire lives in search of true love and still end up dying alone. This is tragic and heartbreaking, however, avoidable. I am guilty of finding someone and falling in love with them. I am guilty of thinking I was in love many times as I was growing up, and in high school and college. Those were just "flings" as most people call them.
I have met someone that I see in every thought and dream about the future. Her name is Elizabeth Cutlip. Elizabeth and I have a son together. He is now 2 years and 4 months old. Elizabeth and I have had a rocky road in our relationship. We have truly seen the best and worst of each other. Relationships are work. They take dedication, patience, and honesty. It is a lot more than just a four letter word that describes and emotion. Our relationship has been far from perfect. It has had many ups and down and heartbreaks. But, we decide to stay together and keep working on it after 6 years. If there is anything that I would call Love, that would be it.
Each one of us has made many mistakes. We are human, we are stupid. We push other people to their limits and expect them not to over react. We hurt people intentionally sometimes for personal gain, and destroy homes and relationships for selfish choices. It is the beauty of free will that causes this. We can not change every human being, we can only hope to be better ones for ourselves and our family and friends.
posted by Jamie @ 3:22 PM
A sad day... but great to see old friends.
Didn't make to to golf this morning. Damn it. I guess there is always next weekend. I have got to get some money saved up or something.
Jack and Kelsey just left. It was awesome to see such a good friend. I don't really get to see much of my friends at all anymore. It was extremely hard to say goodbye. I guess that is typical though. It is always nice saying hello and catching up, but there is always that time when good friends must part ways again. I guess all that one can hope is that life will bring us together again someday.
Landon absolutely fell in love with Kelsey. He cried for like and hour or two after they left. I hope they decide to move to this area. It would be awesome to have more good friends close by. Every time I get to make the trip to WV all of the time is occupied with our families, thus we don't get to visit friends at all. We never even have enough time for both of our families, we are constantly driving back and forth the whole time.
I am happy in NC, it is just hard being so far away from everyone you love. Sometimes you don't realize how just being closer to people makes life easier, whether you see them a lot or not.
The last two weeks have been awesome seeing the people so close to me. It has really provided me with what I need to be content in the decisions that I have made to make a life for my little family. Sometimes you have to go far away from everything you are used to, and love, to make it in this life. Fucking sucks.
Things are getting better, and are going to continue to get even better than that. I just wish everything didn't have to come with such a price. I mean the most important things in life are friends and family, but every life choice that we make seems put more and more distance between us and the ones we love. I don't really know why I am saying all of this, I guess just trying to express myself to the world in one way or another.
Seems like every moment of great happiness is always followed by moments of intense depression. Life's a motherfucker.
posted by Jamie @ 12:31 PM
Well, a fresh start... where does it lead?
I guess I find it very necessary in my life to pick back up on my blogging. I haven't had a chance to keep up with my blog of my life, because, coincidentally enough, life got in the way.
My son is now 2 years and 4 months old. It is hard to believe how much he has changed in just the last 4 months. He is getting so big already, it is unbelievable. He can talk in full sentences and use the potty on his own. I am going to blink, and my son is going to be full grown. Time is by far our most precious asset.
I am really loving my job. I like my team, and the relaxed environment at work. It really makes for a nice work day when you know you aren't working with a bunch of uptight hateful pricks. Although I don't work for Lowe's, working in the Lowe's corporate environment has been pleasant for the most part, and the majority of their employees see like very nice people.
Things are definitely picking up at work. I have taken over full control of the supplies on campus, which includes but is not limited to, inventory and ordering. Right now I am working on a list of the most necessary devices to replace during this years device refresh in Lowe's Land.
Tomorrow is supposed to be a big day at Tanglewood. I don't know if I am going to have the money to go.... I guess we will see. I better get off of here for now and get some rest. It just feels so good to feel like I have a way to get things off of my chest. I guess that is why I always found it necessary to come back to my blog.
I can't believe how much time absolutely changes everything. It is unbelievable.
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