I found out yesterday afternoon that we got the place we were looking into. We are renting Jims house in Lilly Park, maybe rent to own in the near future. I haven't made the decision yet or made the $3000 down payment. So, for now I have been working for my rent. I have mowed Jims grass in Mcross and soon to be at Lilly park as well. Just the other day I fixed the water under the house for him, this was before he had told me he was going to let us live there.

I have been doing my absolute best for everyone.

Anyway I will explain what I mean. Yesterday we found out about the house. We immediately went to the house and started cleaning it. We were there about 4 - 5 hours. We came home to Moms in orient hill and I didn't even have time to eat and I had to go to work. Work was short, about an hour and half. I went back to Moms and picked up the box tape and started helping her pack. This was at almost 11 p.m. It took us until 9 p.m. tonight to finish. Then, I went back to work. Straight 30 hours of work, without sleep. Now I am home blogging about it.

I didnt make one penny out of any of this work I did. Except of course my job, but now I have to get some rest because I have to get up early and do it all over again to get us staying at our new place tomorrow night.

I can't wait. Everything seems to be going well. I hope this positivity continues.

Wish me luck future self that is reading this and already knows if it actually did workout or not. At least you can't say I told you so.

I sure do think about a lot of things when I mow grass. I don't know if it is because the sound of the engine blocks everything out, or just all of the pollen in the air.

I keep thinking about getting us into a house maybe and mowing my own grass. I have always mowed other people's grass, but I wish I had a lawn to worry about.

I had to borrow Jims lawn mower. It wouldn't start at first, we checked the spark plug and it wasn't wet, so we drained the gas and ran new gas through it and it ran. I brought it up here and mowed half of it.

Now the neighbor is mowing on the other half with a riding lawn mower. I might not have to finish it. That would be good, I'm kind of tired already. Lol, one can always have hope, right?

When I was 17 I went to MEPS to go into the army when I graduated. Well, when I applied for the army at the recruiting office they kept my birth certificate and social security card. I stopped by there hundreds of times and so did my mom and there was never anyone there. Now, the recruiting office is closed, and needless to say, I don't have my birth certificate or my social security card.

So now, I have to go to the social security office in Covington,VA to apply for my new card, which will take forever to get here, and I have to go to the Greenbrier County courthouse to get a new birth certificate. Then, I have to take everyone and everything to the mountain cap office and fill out an application.

I swear, it seems like the harder I try to get things done, the harder they get for me. I just want to get us a new place so we can have a fresh start and be a happy family. Hopefully I can get it all done before the apartments are taken. Don't look very promising right now though. This sucks.

I am still doing the floors for the Rainelle Kroger, and I am going to start working more steady with Have-it soon. I haven't had a paycheck in so long, everyday I feel like I m working for nothing. Carlos called today and told us he is bringing us a brand new buffer, and he asked us to do the Beckley Kroger this Friday and Saturday. Those will be two really late nights.

I can't wait until I start doing webpages and other programming projects with Have-it. Mostly because of the increase in money that I will be bringing in, but also because that is what I love to do. My boss Pat is opening a bar in White Sulphur Springs, and me a s Richard will be working there for a few days setting things up. I am going to talk to Pat and see if I might be able to work at the bar a couple nights a week, and if the pay compares to doing the floors, then I will drop the floors and work only for Pat.

I need money so bad, and to find a new place for my family to live. All of this stress mixed with all of the stress other people keep piling on me, I can't help but have a significant amount of doubt in myself and whether or not I will be able to support them. I know I am ready to work everyday for Pat if he wants me to, I can't wait to show him what I can do.