I try to play a game, I try to write a blog, I try to talk to friends.  I try to do a lot of different things every day. I try to get a job, I try to get a girlfriend. I try to raise my kids the best I can.  Turns out, the only thing I get to do is raise my kids. They literally take up every second of my day.

Been waiting on my tax refund like it's really going to come, it sucks. I need money so bad and know this money will just be gone as soon as I get it. Probably won't have anything to show for it either.  I don't know what to do. I try to make sense of it all and it's near fucking impossible to even stay on one train of thought long enough to make any difference.

God help me.. I need strength and guidance, now more than ever.