As my plans stand now, I am going home at 2 or 3. I haven't decided if I want to go to marketing or not. When I get home, I will wait until my Dad gets home from work, then we are going to Akron, OH. In case you don't know where Akron is, it is near Cleveland. Long drive. I have to drive some of the way. It's 6 hrs to get there, and 6 hrs to get back. That takes up half of a day. So, I won't be around all weekend, niether here, nor at home. We are going up there to visit my Grandma and Grandpa. I have absolutely no minutes left on my cell phone, so don't call it, you won't get through. I was supposed to get my new phone this weekend, but since we are going to Ohio I don't guess I will be getting it. That fucking sucks, but I want to make the trip to Ohio... but I am sick so the trip won't be that enjoyable. Oh well, Josh and I are going to eat lunch. Talk to ya sunday night or monday. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 12:08 PM
October 28, 2004 -
I'm ok now.
I guess most of you already know that I went to the hospital last night. Here's the story.
I have been a little sick for near a month now. A couple of days ago, I felt really good, so I figured I had got over whatever it was.
This Monday, I had really bad headaches, and my throat hurt, but I figured it was just my wisdom teeth cutting. I just took tylenol religiously and carried on.
Tuesday was a little worse. Every swallow sent sharp pains through my head, and it was getting a little difficult to deal with the pain. I was still assuming it was my wisdom teeth.
Yesterday, Wednesday... I went to all of my classes... barely. I felt absolutely horrible. I spent all day in bed, except for when I was in the cafe eating. Around 10 o'clock last night, the pain was unbearable. My temperature had went up a little bit, and I could barely talk or swallow. So, Josh took me to the Hospital.
I have had a sinus infection, and a bad amount of buildup in my lungs for a month. I tried to tough it out, but that was a bad idea. They gave me a shot to help clear out my sinuses, a painpill for the pain, and an anitbiotic. Then a PX for steroids (lungs) and antibiotics (sinuses) and told me to take tylenol for the pain. That was the first time I have went to the doctor since Junior High. I just don't go to the doctor. I figure, pain lets you know that you are still alive... but it can also kill you too. It could have ended up in a bad situation all around, if I wouldn't have went to the doctor. Possibly pneumonia. Sometimes, you just can't try to tough everything out. It can end up being the death of you.
It's a lesson learned.
posted by Jamie @ 2:14 PM
October 26, 2004 -
My webpage has been improved!
Well, I have been doing a pretty good bit of work on my webpage the last two days, because I have had free time. I set up a message board that I hope everyone will take advantage of, and help me talk shit about everything. lol. Or, you could always talk good about things. I just like to hear peoples feedback about things. Cause I will read them, and listen and try to see their point of view about different things.
Also, I did an update to my Movies page. It now lists all the latest movies that I have seen, and what I thought about them. Van Helsing was a freaking awesome movie. I suggest watching it, over and over. However, it's not my favorite movie. I have watched too many movies in my lifetime, to pick a favorite. I could make a list of really good movies, but I couldn't pick the best. But, since you insist... it's probably Donnie Darko, or American History X, or The Butterfly Effect. Those are probably my three favorite movies. To pick between them is impossible.
Well, keep reading and take advantage of my message board, register for it, the only username that is currently taken is Jamie. So I am sure that any username that you pick will be available. Talk to ya later.
posted by Jamie @ 3:05 PM
October 25, 2004 -
True Comedy...
This post is about what true comedy is. And, eventhough how gay and stupid John Kerry is, is funny... it's not true comedy.
I think that true comedy is the latest Juicy Fruit commercial, with the CPR dummy. If you haven't seen it, go to juicyfruit.com and watch it. It's great.
Movies, that are truly funny.
1. Anchorman -- this movie is the funniest thing I have ever seen.
2. Grind
3. Eurotrip
4. Road Trip
5. Old School
6. Mallrats
7. Beverly Hills Ninja
8. American Pie 2
9. Blue Collar Comedy Tour
I will continue this later, gotta go to class... I don't really think there are anymore movies that are to par with these movies on funniness anyway. Is 'funniness' even a word?
posted by Jamie @ 12:48 PM
October 22, 2004 -
Finally, High Speed at the house...
Well, we finally got broadband here at home. Charter Pipline. I am so freaking glad, I hate dial-up. I am sure that everyone does. This summer, I will set up my webpage on a Linux server running Apache and host it from home! Then I won't have to deal with pop ups like I have on my site right now. But, it's not a major problem, because most people these days have a pop up blocker. I almost got one of my COBOL programs done last night. I had an error that I had never seen before. I had Lawson look at it and we found the problem. Really easy to fix. Well, I am going to go enjoy my broadband, even though I can enjoy it at school, this broadband isn't limited like it is at school. Haha. I am such a nerd. It's great.
posted by Jamie @ 9:01 PM
October 21, 2004 -
About outsourcing...
In Geography today, my professor really opened my eyes about outsourcing and politics. See, we are studying outsourcing in there right now... so we kind of fell into politics, considering we are nearing November.
He asked a rhetorical question: "Was there outsourcing before George W. Bush?"
He answered: "Of course there was."
He also explained his point... I am going to paraphrase it.
There will always be outsourcing, no matter who is president. If John Kerry was elected president, god help us, he may be able to get rid of a small margin of the outsourcing, and open a few thousand jobs, but it won't be a significant amount like he says.
The only way to get rid of outsourcing is to eliminate trade with foreign countries. If you owned a huge industry, would you pay mexican's $1 and hour or pay americans $15/hr for the same work? Hmm... Don't act like you would actually want to pay the $15/hr, everyone is selfish and the rich only want to be richer. You would pay the $1. Thus you outsource your jobs to another country. More profits, Bad for U.S. economy. Bush cannot stop the companies from doing this shit, and neither can John Kerry. Unless they eliminate trade with foreign countries, and if they do that... we're fucked. John Kerry's plans sound like bullshit that could get this country into trouble, and into a massive debt, and possibly another great depression. Do your country a favor. Vote Bush and Cheney.
Songs listened to while writing: The Used - The Taste of Ink
Yellowcard - Empty Apartment
Finch - Without You Here
I think that The Used and Finch might just become my favorite bands. I have been listening to them a lot lately, well and Yellowcard. Yellowcard's cd is really good. But the new The Used cd is really good too. Lata.
posted by Jamie @ 3:27 PM
October 20, 2004 -
The Confusion of the World
Well, I had a little free time, and some emotion to share. So I wrote a shitty poem. I will share it here.
The Confusion of the World
My heart is not broken
It is full and strong
The world is so cold and cruel
But I have done no wrong
Why do they insist on this shit?
What is the point of all?
When all I am going to do
Is turn around and fall
The temptation is inevitable
The world is closing in
Should I take the easy way out?
Or go through it again
Sometimes things get hard
I really shouldn’t give up
It would be a lot easier
If anyone gave a fuck!
But the world we live in
Teaches no will to give
We are all selfish pricks
With no will to live
I must change my ways
Even if it means I must leave
Because there is no way I can continue
When all I do is grieve
No, this thought is black and foolish
It’s poison is impure
I must take the pain
Because there just isn’t a cure
Maybe it’s unexplainable
Like the wings of a dove
I just wish I could find it
This thing people call love.
By: Jamie Highlander
10-20-04
That's it. Tell me what you think in the comments. Even if it means telling me "stick to computers you sappy son of a bitch."
posted by Jamie @ 4:47 PM
Don't let your fucking bf/gf run your life!
This came in an email from one of my, used to be close, friends.
Hey Jamie
i need to ask you not to write or call me any more. it makes name disclosed too uncomfortable. you were a good friend. sorry but we just can't talk anymore.
name disclosed
We were only friends. It is ridiculous to feel so insecure that you try to control who your girlfriend's friends are. Sounds to me like some counseling is needed. Fuck.
What the fuck is wrong with people these days? Not only the guys that are trying to control their girls, but the girls letting the guys control them. That is fucking stupid. If you are not happy because your boyfriend is controlling your life, then continue suffering. It's your fucking fault. He can't control your life if you don't let him. So, don't fucking cry around, looking for pitty, look in the mirror and do something about it yourself. No one can help you.
Why is it that everybody turns to me for advice? Don't get me wrong, I love 'trying' to give advice, but my life is extremely fucked up too. I just don't think that I can help anyone anymore. Everytime I try to be caring, I have a psycho boyfriend tell me to back up off his bitch.
So, the moral of this story is, if you want to be my friend... be my friend. Don't be a temporary friend. That's not how it's supposed to work. Friends are supposed to be forever. No one can change it.
So, to my friends that have never turned their back on me... I love you guys. You bring meaning to everyday of my life. Josh, Jennifer, Ashley T., Jackie, Richard, Kurt, Chad... You guys have known me for a long time, and never, not ever, have you betrayed me. I will never betray you.
And to my very best friend, whose loyalty to me is unmeasureable. My Brother, Travis. I love you, thanks for always being there man, you are my world.
Small, simple, safe price
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife
The Used - I'm A Fake
posted by Jamie @ 2:45 PM
More about Kerry...
This was taken from John Kerry's campaign website.
"John Kerry has a plan to give America a fresh start by fighting a more effective war on terror and winning the peace in Iraq. President Bush has failed to see the reality of the situation in Iraq and failed to effectively fight the war on terror. And unlike George Bush, John Kerry will never take his eye off the ball as he fights terrorists around the globe."
Anybody can 'say' they have a better plan, let's hear about it. The dumbass says how he has this plan and that plan, but don't tell us about any of them. Does he even have any plans?
There is another false accusation in this excerpt, saying that "Bush has failed to see the reality of the situation in Iraq".
Fucking Propaganda.
Bush knows what he is doing in Iraq. Just think, if Kerry was president, our troops would've been sent to Iraq, and then left without supplies and money to live with. That's not cool. Well, I have to go to class. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 12:47 PM
Politics & Religion?
A friend of mine, who is a democrat (btw), made his first post on his blog tonight. It was, of course, about Politics and Religion. He relates religion to our two Presidential candidates, and makes good points.
And another little piece of info. A lot of people are confused about where John Kerry stands about gay marriage. (It's easy to get confused about John Kerry... he's a flip-flopper remember?)
A lot of you don't know this, but John Kerry plainly stated on MTV's "Choose or Lose" that he supported gay marriage.
Now, for the sake of trying to get votes, he is saying that he only supports civil union... What the hell?
I was also confused about how he stood about this topic, and I told my brother what I thought was true.
Conversation between my brother and I Me: Oh, and John Kerry doesn't support gay marriage.
Brother: Uh, Yes he does. I saw him say it on "Choose or Lose".
Me: Really, hmm. Must have been another flip-flop.
I found this out this weekend... just thought my readers should know the truth. He does support gay marriage. He is only saying that he doesn't now, to try to fool some of the people that don't believe in that sort of thing into voting for him.
What a dirty bastard.
The more he talks, the more he shows us how stupid he is. Hopefully by November, people will see his true colors, and vote for the man. George W.
Another thing, before I go to bed... It's not up to the President about gay marriage anyway. It's up to the state. Massachusetts for example, legalized gay marriage. If you are voting for Kerry only for gay marriage, don't do that. It's up to your state, not the president. Bush does not hate gays. He agrees with civil union. Just not marriage. And the fact that John Kerry is or was the senator of Massachusetts must say something about where he stands on gay marriage. I'm not sure how he voted when the bill passed, but my bet would be "yes".
posted by Jamie @ 3:21 AM
October 19, 2004 -
More politics...
Damn, I thought I wasn't going to talk about politics anymore.
This came in an email I got from College-Republicans.
Describes John Kerry perfectly. Flip-Flopper and a liar.
The most important decision a commander-in-chief makes is to put American soldiers in harm's way to protect us. When John Kerry voted to invade Iraq and then voted against the money to keep our troops safe and to finish the job, he revealed himself to be unfit for the Oval Office.
Meanwhile, President Bush has held to his vow in the days after September 11th to do whatever it takes to keep America safe.
Like I said before, Bush will not back down. John Kerry believes in sending our troops over to Iraq, then not giving them any money to live with. That's bullshit. I just can't believe anyone would want a president like John Kerry, that would be willing to put our troops through hell without giving them everything they need to protect their country, and get home safe.
If John Kerry is elected President, it's hard to tell what will happen to this country. My guess is, it wouldn't be for the better.
posted by Jamie @ 4:36 PM
October 18, 2004 -
News that is good for some... bad for others.
Well, I figured I would go ahead and post this, as the plans look as though they are final.
I will not be returning to Concord University Fall 2005. Josh and I are transferring to West Virginia University to further our education.
That is the plan for now, and we are pretty sure, but there is always a chance that we will end up here at CU for one more year.
Another post later.
posted by Jamie @ 11:48 PM
I feel good about homework... until tomorrow.
I got my COBOL programs that were due last monday done. The last day for them to be submitted late is tomorrow. Procrastination. I am a professional at that. I have more COBOL programs that are due late wednesday, that I guess I will work on a little tomorrow, then finish on tuesday. I am just happy that I got those done today. I played a couple games of DDR. It's been quite a few days since I played, so I figured I better keep up on practice. I did, of course, play DDR after my COBOL was finished. That's a rare thing. I really like posting on here. It feels like I am accomplishing something... lol. Who knows, maybe it's a waste of time. But, at least I have some sort of journal so I can remember my sophomore year in college.
About the PHP script. I decided that I am just going to do it in HTML. I am fluent in HTML, maybe if I get motivated enough I will re-do it in PHP. But until then, HTML. Expect it to be on the music page tomorrow, if all goes as planned. It probably won't though. I can never make plans, because they always get shot to hell. That's why procrastination is a bad thing for someone like me. Oh well.
I still have 3 invitations left to Google email. If anyone is interested in receiving an invitation, email me at J.Highlander@gmail.com and I will send you one. Gmail is pretty cool, and it's free! It gives you 1000 MB of space, free. It allows you to send and receive attachments up to 10 MB in size, free. And it's extremely fast and dependable, even for a beta test. Well, I guess I'm out. Lata.
posted by Jamie @ 1:47 AM
October 17, 2004 -
Top 10 Favorite Albums...
Well, on October 11, 2004 I posted my top 10 favorite bands... it has changed slightly, but I am not going to post the updated list. Instead I am going to post my top 10 favorite albums/cds of all time.
Top 10 Favorite Albums: 1. Box Car Racer - Self-titled (2002)
2. Blink-182 - Dude Ranch (1997)
3. The Get Up Kids - Something to Write Home About (1999)
4. Modest Mouse - Building Nothing Out of Something (1999)
5. The Ataris - Blue Skies, Broken Hearts... Next 12 Exits (1998)
6. Blink-182 - Self-Titled (2004)
7. The Used - Self-Titled (2002)
8. Rage Against the Machine - Self-Titled (1992)
9. Green Day - American Idiot (2004)
10. Breaking Benjamin - We Are Not Alone (2004)
10. Cold - Year of the Spider (2003)
Couldn't choose between the two for 10th. So it was a tie.
Honorable Mention: (no order)
Three Days Grace - Self-Titled (2003)
Trust Company - The Lonely Position of Neutral (2002)
Trapt - Self-Titled (2002)
All Modest Mouse CD's and Blink-128 CD's.
All The Get Up Kids CD's.
Linkin Park CD's.
Nirvana CD's.
posted by Jamie @ 11:49 PM
Home Sweet Home...
Ah, it always feels good to be home... well most of the time. Today is one of those times. I left Concord around 3 and got home around 4. Me, my Dad, and my brother went to Beckley to see Friday Night Lights. I thought it was a really good movie. Came back home and I have been sitting here working on COBOL. I actually brought my computer home with me just for COBOL. Damn, I hate COBOL. I didn't get to work again this weekend, due to the rain. That's really pissing me off. It is kinda late, but I have to finish laundry and COBOL, then I can go to sleep. Well, better get to it... later.
posted by Jamie @ 4:36 AM
October 16, 2004 -
Pretty good day...
It's been a pretty good day today. No pressure of tests or homework. Finally! I would like to thank everyone for continually reading my blog and viewing my website. It really shows me that people cares. I pretty much post my life on this blog, so if you want to keep up with my life, this is where to do it. Especially thanks to my friends that are back home, in Morgantown, and everywhere else. It means a lot to me when I get an IM that says "I read on your site...", you guys are great. My page views have went up from around 3-6 a day to around 30-40! Your support keeps me motivated to keep my site up to date for you. September had a total of 195 page views, compared to August which had a total of 49 hits. October already has 188 views and the month is only half over! My hit counter predicts that I will have around 364 by the end of the month! That's nearly double of what September was! During the summer months (May-Aug) I had about 5-10 unique visitors a month. In September I had 39 unique visitors, and in October I already have 34 unique visitors, and my counter predicts I will have a total of 64 unique visitors by the end of the month. Thanks you guys!
In other news, I am working on a PHP script to allow people to submit the artist and title of music that they like, so that I can hear a little of everything.
Well guys... and girls... keep reading, and if you ever need anything, you know how to get ahold of me. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 2:41 AM
October 15, 2004 -
My Mom used to tell me...
My Mom used to tell me that there are just some things you just don't talk about. I really should take her advice. This past weekend, I started with my Bush and Kerry stuff, and she said, "Jamie, there are two things that you just DON'T talk about... politics, and religion." It's the truth, because no matter how you believe, no one out their believes the same as you, thus it is just asking for an argument. I find myself still talking about politics and religion, and all it does is start a never ending debate. From now on, no more politics, and no more religion talk for me. I'm done with it. It's stupid.
Oh yeah, one last time, Fuck John Kerry. Vote Bush. :)
posted by Jamie @ 12:55 PM
To all of the Bush haters out there... Fuck you!
Well it seems like the people of America are wanting to be a part of another trend. What is this trend? To hate our President George W. Bush, and say bad things about him.
My opinion may be a little biased considering that I am a republican and I am voting for Bush, and trying to convince others to vote Bush in November. But I am going to voice my opinion, since nobody else can keep their fucking stupid mouths shut putting down my president.
First off. Don't ever say that George Bush is stupid. Let me ask you this mr/ms Bush hater, do you have a fucking bachelor's from Yale, and a master's from Harvard Business? Probably not. So shut your fucking stupid ass, community college, mouth.
All I hear is, Bush should've did this, should've did that... shut the fuck up for God's sake. Do you think that you could of made those fucking decisions under the pressure that he was under? No, you couldn't have, that's why you are not the fucking president of the United States.
Before I continue, I am not targetting Kerry supporters... if you truly believe the bullshit that John Kerry feeds you, then that's cool with me.
Anyway... How many of you looked at September 11th and said, we must fight back? We must get the stupid motherfucker that attacked our country and killed our citizens? I can tell you the answer. Almost every single one of you wanted to return the favor of Sept. 11th to the cocksucker that was responsible. If you didn't think this, then go back to Germany, you Nazi bastard.
I think that another reason that people hate Bush is the fact that they got deployed, or someone they loved got deployed to the war. What the fuck? What is the point in a country having a military? TO FIGHT FOR YOUR COUNTRY!! If you didn't want to go to the war why the fuck did you sign the paper to go into the military? That is your fucking mistake, so live with it. All that is going through most people's mind when they sign up for the military is the money. Mostly the reserves think this. "Well, I am going to join the Army Reserve and get this much per month, and they are going to pay my tuition and shit, but all I have to do is work 1 weekend a month, 2 weeks a year". Wrong, dumbass. You have to defend your fucking country. That's what they are paying you for. So fucking do it and stop whining!
FUCKING SHIT!
So dumb fuck Kerry says, Osama Bin Laden was the original target in the war, why are we in Iraq?
Saddam Hussein was a threat to our country, and just because Osama fucking Bin Laden is hiding and we can't find him, doesn't mean that we should just leave our country open to Hussein to attack us, while we look for Bin Laden.
How fucking ignorant some people are suprises me sometimes.
Did George W. Bush bring back the draft? No. If he would have and me or people I love would have got deployed for that reason, I would hate him. But he didn't. He sent the people over there that signed up for the job. The ones that he thought 'wanted' to fight for their country. But now everyone is pissed at him for it. Fucking hypocrits.
Bush is fighting with all of our country's power to make the enemy know that we are not going to be fucking pussies and stand down. Fuck no. We will fight. And we will win.
And another thing, what is with the fucking punk and goth groups? They all seem to be anti Bush and pro Kerry? Why? What did Kerry say that pleases you guys?
It's obvious why the homosexual society in the US is pro Kerry and anti Bush, so I am not going to address that here.
How much are you paying for gas right now? Hmm... that's what I though, a lot more than you want to, well, if Kerry is elected president it will go up even more. Yay.
John Kerry promises more money to everything it seems. How awesome is that? It's not fucking awesome. Where the fuck do you think he is getting this money? He is getting it out of your fucking pocket, if you are a tax payer. If you are not a tax payer, then get off of your fucking lazy ass and get a fucking job and help the economy.
Liberal propaganda. That's all I hear these days. It's nothing but a bunch of fuck heads voicing their opinion. Like it fucking matters. If you want to make a difference, get involved into politics and run for president. Otherwise, just shut the fuck up. Nobody important will ever listen anyway.
And if you are judging who you are going to vote for by the debates, we all know that Kerry is a better bullshitter than Bush. Because Bush don't bullshit. Kerry gets up there and feeds us this bullshit that most of us don't look into. "Oh, more money to education.. cool". Most of YOU won't ask the question, "Wait, where is he going to get that money?" Tisk, tisk.
Kerry sounds "smarter" than Bush, because Bush isn't a great public speaker. How many of you fuckers could get in front of the world and speak flawlessly? Not many, if any. Kerry presents us with all kinds of statistics that mostly aren't true. He accuses our president of things he didn't do and don't plan to do. He is just an outright lying, flip-flopping, asshole.
I am sure that I will think of more later, but that's it for now.
To reiterate my previous statement, to all of the Bush-haters out there. Shut the fuck up and get an education, bitches.
Make the right choice: BUSH & CHENEY 2004 (ok maybe this was against Kerry, lol)
I know that I have democrat friends, and liberal friends, but if you consider yourself my friend then you have never tried to push your liberal shit on me, thus this is not towards you. 'Cause if you would've pushed your shit on me, a conservative, we probably wouldn't be friends. :(
If this pisses anyone off (good, I hope it pisses you off as much as you piss me off), or if anyone agrees, please leave a comment, I will be more than happy to read it. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 2:29 AM
October 14, 2004 -
DDR sure can mess up your day...
DDR is the devil! Nah, just playing. My legs are really sore though from playing so much.
During "The Mountain" last night I heard a good song by a band named Hawk Nelson.
So I went to their website and listened to a little bit of their music, and it's really good. Come to find out, reading their Bio, that they are a christian punk band from Canada.
I now have the whole CD. I suggest giving them a listen. It's good stuff. Well, the rest of the day is packed with nothingness, except for the Bonfire at 6:00. I better get to working on my programs... if I can get motivated.
Currently Listening to:
Hawk Nelson
Letters to the President (2004)
Track 6 - Right Here
Well... I got my assembly done 3 minutes before the submission site went down. That was a close one. I am really upset that I didn't get my COBOL programs done. That is now three COBOL programs that I have to submit late. That class is getting rough, because it is so accellerated because we are squeezing both COBOL 1 and COBOL 2 into the same semester. I hope that I can get my shit together and catch up in COBOL. I need a B in that class. I need a B in all of my classes... or bye bye full paid tuition. The pressure is on. Will I be able to get through it, and get my B's? Or will I continue to procrastinate and get C's?
Smallville and The Mountain were good tonight. I love those shows. I haven't missed a single episode this season on either show. They come on the WB on wednesdays at 8:00 (Smallville) 9:00 (The Mountain).
I guess for the rest of the night I will just work on my programs and play DDR a little in between. Well I guess that's all for now, If I think of anything else I will be sure to post it. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 1:00 AM
October 13, 2004 -
Good news... kinda...
Well, Lawson moved the Cobol assignment to being due tonight at 11:55, so I got to get working on that motherfucker. My assembly is also due at 11:59. And lip sync is at 9 and Smallville comes on at 8. So I pretty much have to get done with all of this shit before 8...hmmm.... I think I think I'm going to play some DDR. Damn it... I'm going to fail.
posted by Jamie @ 2:50 PM
Dance Dance...
Josh and I went and bought Dance Dance Revolution for the Xbox yesterday. That damn game is addictive. My feet are even a little sore from playing so much yesterday. Now Josh and I can mix our video games with our exercise. Best of both worlds. I am extremely tired... probably because I have only had around 4 and a half hours of sleep. And a total of about 13 hrs of sleep out of 72 hrs in three days. It is starting to catch up with me. I am exhausted. After Cobol today, I am going to skip Marketing and come back to the room and take a nap. It will do me some good. I am hungry right now, and Josh is in Art. Haha. I have Art with him... but why am I not there? Because I fucking hate that class, that's why. Well, another Cobol program is late. I didn't get both of them done last night. I did get one of them done though. I have an Assembly program due tonight. I will do it after my nap. Smallville and The Mountain come on tonight. Lip sync is tonight. I am going to have to choose between lip sync and The Mountain. Maybe I can find someone to record it for me. Lip sync is about the best thing that happens around here, so I don't want to miss it. I am actually keeping up with my blog, how crazy is that. I will probably go through another phase where I don't post on it at all sometime. Oh well. That's it for now, getting ready to go eat lunch.
Currently Listening to:
Finch
What it is to Burn (2002)
Track 11 - Three Simple Words
Finch fucking rules!
posted by Jamie @ 11:57 AM
October 12, 2004 -
Wow it's late... or early... whatever...
I have been up all night programming it, and I am tired... but I have class at 11, so why even go to bed? I don't know, I probably shouldn't even go to class because George might get onto me again for sleeping in class. We aren't doing anything in there anyway, but I need the extra attendance points... fuck. I have a lot of programs I have to do later too. I have 2 Cobol programs and an assembly program. Too much shit to do, and not enough time. I am now sacrificing sleep, I wonder what's next. My bed is calling.... should I go? I think I am going to... there is only so long a person can go without sleep. I only got 4 hrs of sleep sunday night because I was programming. When does a programmer get to sleep... never... haha... we don't have to, we are superior... fuck it... I'm going to bed.
posted by Jamie @ 9:17 AM
October 11, 2004 -
Yet another addition to the day...
I read an interesting blog entry today from someone that most of you don't know... It was titled "The Top Ten Worst Bands of All Time".
First off, this guy is a music major, thus he knows a lot about music, so to argue against him about music is just fucking stupid for a computer information systems major. But, I'm going to do it anyway. HaHa.
Ok, to get started. Everyone knows who my favorite band is. Blink-182. Number 2?... Modest Mouse, amongst others. I also like The All-American Rejects, Linkin Park, Simple Plan... well god damn it, that guy has all of those bands on his list... lol.
Blink-182 - Although all of their songs aren't the best, listen to Travis Barker play the fucking drums, that guy is a GOD on drums. However, it's easy for people to judge so-called "Pop-punk" bands, because they make a shit load of money, thus everyone is jealous so they try to critique their work. Although most "Pop-punk" riffs are not hard to play on the electric guitar, it still takes a significant amount of skill to play it.
Hanson - Not good music.
Modest Mouse - Great music. They play many instruments that are not played in most of today's music. It's great to hear a change. My favorite CD by them is "It's a Long Drive for Someone With Nothing to Think About". I have a few of their cd's... "Moon and Antarctica, Good News for People Who Love Bad News, It's a Long Drive..., Building Nothing out of Something"
Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory was a little repetative, but damn on Meteora they have a Japanese flute in one of their songs. How is that the same as the rest of their music? It's not. They mix it up quite a bit in Meteora. Another thing anyway, when a band uses the same instruments in all of their songs, it's bound to sound the same as their other songs. Unless they use a different distortion for every song...
AC/DC - I think that he just put AC/DC on there, because he knew that almost everybody listens to AC/DC and he knew it would get something out of them. Anyway, AC/DC sucks... most of the time.
Nickelback - I like them, however, I don't like them enough to argue against what he said about them.
Shinedown - Damn they must suck, cause I haven't even heard of them
Limp Bizkit - He nailed it. What he said about them is perfect.
Led Zepplin - I liked "Stairway to Heaven". That's it. No contest.
I guess I only disagreed about Blink, Modest Mouse, Linkin Park, and the other 'teeny-bop' punk bands that he listed. However, those 'teeny-bop' punk bands are not my favorite bands, I still like them, and enjoy their music.
To sum up, I liked his list, because it challenged me. But, Blink-182 is a great band, and surely doesn't belong in the list beside Simple Plan, and Good Charlotte for god's sake. Good Charlotte? Jesus. Good Charlotte are sell out bastards, I mean, I still like a couple of their songs, but damn, comparing them to Blink is criminal.
Ok, enough of that.
My top 10 Favorite Bands: 1. Blink-182 / Box Car Racer
2. The Get Up Kids
3. Modest Mouse
4. The Used
5. Green Day
6. Finch
7. Weezer
8. Nirvana
9. The All-American Rejects
10. The Ataris ---- mostly their old stuff "Blue Skies.." and "End is Forever"
Honorable Mention: Three Days Grace, Trapt, Rage Against the Machine, Yellowcard, Switchfoot, Sugarcult, Mest, Godsmack, Reveille, Slipknot, Unwritten Law
Well that's pretty much all I wanted to say... Later.
posted by Jamie @ 10:11 PM
Just a quick note of info...
I don't know if any of you realize, but my comments on my blogs are open to the public. If you have something to say, or some advice about a particular blog, please leave a comment, I will appreciate it. I'm not positive, but I don't even think you have to have an account at blogger.com to post a comment. Thanks again. Later.
I just checked it, and you don't have to have an account, but if you don't you have to post anonymously. If you post anonymously you can always mention your name in the comment to tell me who you are, or you can post anonymously, either way is fine with me. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 9:07 PM
I did a little change to my blog...
Well, I was bored so I decided to change my template on my blog, I like this one a lot better anyway. Also, instead of letting blogger host my blog, I decided to host it on my webpage, that way I can post as many pictures, or anything else that I want. Plus it's all on the same server... which is good. I'm not as tired as I thought I was going to be today. I mean I didn't go to bed this morning until 5 a.m. and then I got up at 9:00 to take a shower and go to class. I guess 4 hrs of sleep isn't bad. Amanda Pettry emailed me and said that she was coming down here to CU for homecoming week, which is this week, so I might get to see her this week. I really miss her, we got really close last semester. She's a really great friend. And by friend, I mean only a friend. Just as Victoria and I agreed to. We are going to be friends. I would rather be her friend, than for her not to be in my life at all.
I only got 2 of my 7 Cobol programs done. So the highest grade I can get on the Assignment is an 80 now. Oh well though. Those fucking programs were harder than hell. I have a week to get them done now, then I won't be able to turn them in at all. I should be able to get them done. I have an Assemble Language test Friday. That's not going to be fun. I have 2 more Cobol programs due Wednesday, and one Assembly program due wednesday. I hope I can get all of this shit done, but if I don't, Oh well, I guess I will just have to lose my PROMISE scholarship and take out more loans... if I don't get a 3.0 or above. And believe it or not that is harder than what it sounds.
I have a new favorite CD for now.
Green Day - American Idiot
I suggest listening to it. It's good. My favorite songs are "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" and "Wake Me Up When September Ends".
Well that's it for now. Later.
posted by Jamie @ 7:10 PM
October 07, 2004 -
More reasons to vote Bush and Cheney...
Here are some of the prime reasons to vote Bush and Cheney in the upcoming Presidential Election.
Why would we want a president that says he is going to do one thing at one point in time, and change his mind just to try to win some votes? George and Dick are upfront. If they say they are going to do something, they do it. Maybe we don't like the decisions they make everytime, but at least they don't flip flop.
If you are going to read this it is long, I warn you, 2,455 words.
Well, this weekend was great, but this week could've been better. I went to the Ohio Linuxfest in Columbus, OH. It was a great experience to say the least. But, as you all know, I have to give the details.
I went over to the Math/CS Department at about 12:20 p.m. when I was supposed to be there at noon. I thought for sure they were going to leave me, and I come to find out later, they were going to leave me, but extenuating circumstances slowed them down and pushed the departure time back. Destiny? Maybe, maybe not, you make the decision after the entire blog.
Well, I arrived in the math lobby and everyone was there, ready to go. I didn't see Lonnie around anywhere so I asked where he was. He couldn't go for a health reason, but they had invited a person to go in his place. Lonnie and I were supposed to ride with Dr. Hill and his wife in their car for the long trip to Ohio. Mark was there, so I was talking to him, and then, in walked Lonnie's replacement. Victoria. She was in my Assembly Language class, and I had a little crush on her, but nothing I was brave enough to pursue. She was just out of my league. I had met her last year through Amanda when we went out to eat to CiCi's. Didn't think anything of it.
Well, Hill's car fucked up, the brakes were sticking, so he had to go to Green Valley and rent a car. It was like an hour and a half before we left for Ohio. During the wait for Hill to get back with the rental car, Victoria, Mark, and I played hacky sack in the hall outside the lobby and classrooms. I knew immediately that Victoria and I had a lot in common. Well, finally Hill showed up with the 2005 Chevy Trailblazer and we were ready to depart. That was when I realized that Victoria was going to be taking Lonnie's place, and I was going to be taking the long ride with her. I was really excited, cause I knew I would get to know her a little better.
On the way up, Victoria and I talked non-stop, about the past, about the future, and about now, and we played the ABC game and a rhyming game. The trip couldn't of lasted long enough. It was a fun trip up there.
When we got to Columbus, we went to an awesome computer store called Micro Center, then out to eat at Quaker Steak & Lube. I ate some pretty damn hot hot-wings. Then we went back to the Motel. I wanted a dip of snuff, and Eric wanted a pack of cigarettes, so we walked over to the gas station across the street to buy us some nicotine (btw, it was nearly $5 for one can of copenhagen!!!). All of the other students on the trip were over there at the gas station. They were getting a 12 pack of Bud light... in the bottles. My absolutely favorite beer. I wasn't going to drink, but Cynthia and Victoria called and said they couldn't drink it all theirselves, so Eric and I went down to thier room to drink a few.
When we got there I of course was out drinking everyone, for some reason, I guess I am some sort of alcoholic.... nah. Well, we were all sitting their talking and drinking, and Victoria and I told each other that we liked each other. We got on the topic about sex, and I told her that I was not a virgin, and that I wasn't very happy about the girl that my first time was with. She knew the girl, and she agreed, not a very smart decision. After that topic had come and passed, I felt like shit, because of the mistake I made, so Mark and I decided to leave. The beer was gone anyway. I walked out of the door, and Victoria said, "Wait, don't leave". But I walked out, regardless... I was embarassed because of what I had just told her. Well I walked and caught up with Mark, on our way back to our room, and then her door swung open, and she signalled me over to her. I walked over, and she kissed me on the cheek. Then we walked back to our rooms for the night.
Next day, up at 8:00 a.m. to get ready for the convention. Eric and I got our showers and we were ready to go. We met at the vehicles and went to the Hyatt Hotel, where the convention was held. Mark, Victoria, and I went to Fame's Diner, for breakfast. Victoria and I both got pancakes... another thing in common.
We sat beside each other for all of the discussions, and by the third one we were holding hands. There were "Birds of a Feather" meetings after lunch, but Victoria and I decided that we didn't want to go to any of those, so we walked around together. We went up the escalator and stood over top of a coffee shop, talking and holding hands. Then we went back to the convention, after the "Birds of a Feather" meetings were over. We held hands the rest of the day... it was innocent and sweet.
After the convention, we went and ate at a cheap family restaurant. I don't even remember the name of it. Then we left, and started the drive back to WV.
The drive back was like something out of a movie. I held Victoria in my arms the whole way, while she did random things with her phone, most notably playing tetris, and we talked. I asked her if this weekend meant that we were dating. She asked me, what will we do about the Navy (her ship date is 1-11-05). I told her that we would worry about that when we got there. Then she said, that we would wait a few days back at school, to see if we acted the same in our normal environment. To make sure it wasn't an "in the heat of the moment" type of thing I guess. After a few stops and go's we got back on campus. We dropped Victoria off in front of North Tower and dropped me off at Wooddell.
When I got back to the room I did a few things on my computer and went to the bathroom. When I walked out of the bathroom I heard my phone ringing from down the hall, so I took off sprinting. I hate to miss a phone call. It was Victoria. She asked me if I wanted to come over to her room for a while, and I said yes.
When I got over there, we played some Dance Dance Revolution and some NCAA 2005, which she didn't stand a chance against me. But I didn't stand a chance against her at DDR. Then we decided to watch Finding Nemo. There were a few sweet kisses, then we fell asleep during the movie.
We woke up sometime around 11 ish, and I left to go over to Wooddell to shower and shiznit. we We ate lunch together sometime around noon and 1.
After lunch I walked her half-way up to towers then we parted ways so she could do some homework.
Sunday night, I went over and hung out with her some more. That's when I realized I was falling for her, both hard and fast. I had never been happier.
Monday I ate lunch with her and stuff, and that night went over to her place to hang out again. That night was awesome to say the least, and I got back at Wooddell around midnight. I studied for my Geography midterm as much as I could, but it was hard to concentrate because all I could think about was her. I slept well Monday night, as I did all previous nights since I had met her.
I woke up Tuesday morning in a great mood and went and took my Geography midterm. Directly after the midterm, I went and ate lunch with Victoria, Josh, and Travis.
Everything seemed to be going well, and I told her that I would come over later to help her with her Programming II algorithms (C++). I had that class last semester, for those of you that don't know, and C++ is my favorite programming language.
WARNING: It's all downhill from here...
Around 4:00 I went over to her room to help her with her homework. I walked in her room and everything was normal, we kissed etc.
She was working on her homework and I got on her computer to look at my programs from C++ that are posted on my website. The ones that she was working on are on there. I saw an instant message that was on there from one of her friends...
Background info before I continue...
She told me on the way up to Ohio that she was bi-sexual. And if any of you know me well enough, you know that I was thoroughly against gay/lesbian ways. But, every passing second is a time to change, both the way you see the world and the way you perceive it. For both of us. So I told her that I was cool with that. And I wasn't lying. And I wasn't thinking at all about sex, or threesomes, for the guys that are reading this.
Ok, back to the story...
The friend that the IM was from, happened to be her ex-girlfriend. Her friend was having personal problems or something. I told Victoria about the IM and she went over to the computer and read it... while I laid on her bed. Then, all of a sudden, she said "Oh shit" and she ran out of the room. A minute or two later, one of her sorority sisters came down to Victoria's room and told her roommate "Victoria said that she had an emergency, and wanted you to take Jamie downstairs." So she did.
The whole thing bothered me a little, but not bad, but regardless I decided to take a drive and think. When I got back around 7:30 I called her and asked her what had happened. She said that she had a lot of things going on in her head and that she didn't want to talk about it right now. I asked her if it had to do with me, and she said again that she didn't want to talk about it right now. I knew right then and there that it wasn't good.
I got ahold of her via phone later that night, around 9:00. She told me what she was thinking, I guess I kind of pryed it out of her, which was stupid, but I wanted to talk to her about it. She told me about her pressures that she was under and I understood the best I could. Then she told me that she was thinking that she was thinking that she was completely lesbian, as she had thought before. Other things were said.
We broke up during that phone call.
To say the least, I was crushed. I know that it was a short relationship, but we seemed so perfect for each other, I thought God had finally sent me my Angel and it was my turn to be happy. So I had high hopes, and they were stripped away, so it came as a massive shock. I was quite emotionally unstable, and I asked God why. Why did he give me these few days of such happiness, then take it away so suddenly. It was obvious that she was sent my way for a reason. And I realized that the reason wasn't a relationship. Josh really helped me through it. He is the best friend anyone could have. I don't yet know what the reason is for Victoria and I meeting, but I hope I find out.
Today, Wednesday October 6, 2004
It was an awkward day. Victoria and I saw each other in Assembly, but didn't talk. While I was in Art class at 11:00 I text messaged her on her cell phone and told her that I needed to talk to her. So we made plans to eat lunch together.
After Art, I went to eat lunch with Victoria. She told me that without a doubt she was a lesbian. So I went to Cobol at 1:00 directly after lunch with her. I could not concentrate at all, and Mr. Lawson saw my uneasiness and he knew the whole story because he knows both me and Victoria personally, and he released class early. I don't know if it was because of me that he let class out, but I am glad he did, because it wasn't doing me any good to be there anyway. I skipped Marketing at 2:00 because I just couldn't concentrate on schoolwork.
I came back to the room and listened to music and laid down and thought it through. I realized then and now that I was blessed to have these few days with such a great girl. She was a sign to show me that love is still out there, and to not give up hope.
So here I am, telling the story and it is now 1:26 a.m and I started this at 11:00. Even though it was hard to take, I appreciate her and everything about her. She is a great girl, and I support her and her decisions, even if they are not in my favor. You can't get everything you want, that's for sure, but damn, this weekend was great. Someone out there is going to be extremely lucky to one day be with that girl.
I am really fond of such a brave move she made. I am glad that she was thinking about me, and didn't want to get farther into the relationship and something like this happen, cause then it would have been worse for me.
Well, that is the end of this story, so Victoria if you are reading this, I am still here for you no matter what, and thanks for being honest with me, even though it hurt now, it would have hurt worse in the future. You are a great person, and good luck with everything.
When you look back on it, it couldn't of been a big coincidence. It happened for a reason. And I am happy now for the experience, even if it was a little painful. No pain, no gain.
Good night everyone.
October 6-7, 2004
11:00 p.m. - 1:42 a.m.
posted by Jamie @ 4:43 AM
October 04, 2004 -
This weekend was great...
I have never had a better 2 - 3 days in my life. I met an awesome girl this weekend. Her name is Victoria. We get along so well it's unbelievable. We have the same taste in music, we both use linux, we both play video games, and we both like each other. She is too cool for me, but I'm not complaining. Life is good. The Ohio Linuxfest was a very interesting thing, for a geek. And that is what I am, so what can I say? Good times are in the future. But I am not going to plan. I am just going to live life one day at a time. I am not going to look at the past and ask questions like "What the fuck was I thinking?" I am just going to go with it, and see where I end up. It's working out great. Later.
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