Seems like that is all it ever does in this state. Almost every single day we will have at least one little shower. Most of the time is it thunderstorms. I hate this depressing weather.... for the most part.
I drove the Van today for the first time as a backup driver. It went ok, except for of course, the rain. Also, the people around here never really learned how to drive, so... There was an accident on I-77 that made us late this morning. Then, this evening it was raining and shitty, and the person in front of me slammed on their brakes and I almost rear ended them. Needless to say, it wasn't a great driving day. I hope people don't judge me by it.
Elizabeth was mean as shit to me as soon as she got out of bed. That has been another everyday thing. Her treating me like shit and me bending over backwards to make her happy, just to be treated like shit again tomorrow. Kinda getting sick of that shit. I am not saying that I am the nicest person 100% of the time, however, I don't just go off about stupid childish things like not having a fucking soda. I would simply grab a glass and drink some Tap water. Like and adult would. Geez.
Doesn't really matter what we are sick of in this life. We are all here to suffer and tolerate. This is just a test of your character to see if you will be granted eternity in a better place. No matter how I am treated all day, whether my day was bad or good, I still try to be respectful and kind to the people around me. Even if that person is the person that ruined my day. I treat people how I want to be treated, and do not stoop to their level with revenge or spite. Those are childish emotions that escalate even the smallest of issues into huge life changing problems. This is what Elizabeth tends to do about a lot of things.
I know I love that girl with all of my heart, and I think that she loves me too. But there is only so much misery one person can go through. It would be different if I deserved it. Like, if I was a bad Dad, or abusive spouse, but I am nothing like that. I try to remind her constantly throughout everyday how much I love her and want her and think about her.... She reminds me of every little fucking think that has went wrong in the last 23 years. Sometimes it is so unbearable that I want to leave and never speak to her again. For real.
I guess I all I can do is hope the shit stops before it is too late. I doubt it though. Some people never change, or change for the worse. Later.
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