I woke up this morning in a decent mood except for the puppy whining non-stop. Then I cleaned the house all day, and got all of the laundry done. I didnt even get 5 mins to myself to do anything I wanted to do until now, right before I have to go to bed to be ready for work tomorrow. And this is what I decided to do with my five minutes of glory, is post a fucking blog no one cares to read anyway. I guess it is a way for me to straighten things out in my mind and put it on 'paper'. As I get older, I notice I am starting to forget some things that I use to know really well. And learning that the things I thought I knew for sure would never change, have changed in the worse ways. I am starting to feel completely alone inside my head, because everytime I try to talk about my problems I guess my honesty upsets the other person and they wont listen or be sympathetic at all. All I get is empathy and shut ups. I am so close to giving up completely. I am tired of trying so hard and changing everything for absolutely no results. Still pain all the time. I just wish it would get better. Fuck Jamie, he doesn't have feelings anyway. Just let hime rot away with his sadness and grief, who gives a fuck.
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